i'm at a loss for what to share with you today. last week i very suddenly and unexpectedly lost my only brother. the pain has left my family (father, mother, sister) reeling with the shock, numb with pain, stunned with grief.
i could tell you about ben, about his life, with me, without...i could sing the song of his comings and goings, his all-too-short time on this earth. but for the time i just can't, and i won't. for now that seems too sweet, too close, too private.
i've been away in alabama for a week, tucked away with my parents, remembering, crying, laughing, staring into space, wandering around their house, staying busy.
i'm home again, albeit briefly, as i leave again on friday night for a teaching stint in california. (how, dear GOD, how, i ask??!)
these times are hard, hard, hard.
life can be so very sad and misunderstood.
enjoy it to the fullest, with the ones you love. that's what i have to say, today.
i love you, brother. i always, always will.